I Didn’t Mean to Quit My Job; Purpose Made Me Do It.

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As I sat in the parking lot of my good government job, I wrestled once again with going back home or going inside. I cried out to God and told him I couldn’t do this anymore. I hated my job with all my heart and soul and my supervisor was the absolute worst. She prided herself on making people cry and I prided myself on never letting her see me cry. I filed two grievances against her already but her behavior didn’t change. She had three years left before retirement and I realized upper management kept her there because of this.

I knew I was wasting my time and energy at this job. Over and over again, day after miserable day, I sat looking at my computer screen wondering why I was even there. I had no purpose there. I was doing like most of my friends, working a job I hated. I worked nine to ten hour days just to have every other Friday off in conjunction with taking the opposite Friday off using up all of my sick leave. My friends made fun of me and always asked if I was ever going to work a Friday. I called them my mental health Fridays.

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Shaking like a leaf and sobbing uncontrollably, I called my husband from my car. I told him I was putting in my one week notice and he was speechless. I asked him not to question my decision but to trust that I heard God. Thankfully, he said, “okay”. I got myself together and thanked God for a husband who trusted me when I said I was making a faith decision. I went inside, sat in my cubicle and turned on my computer.  Once again, I was bombarded with yet more of her childish and condescending emails.

I turned off my monitor and prayed. In the midst of me praying, I clearly heard, “I am with you. I will never leave nor forsake you. Before I formed you, I knew you. Be of good courage. Lean not to your own understanding but acknowledge me and I will direct your path.” I went to the ladies room to praise Him for His Word and the peace that came over me. I knew I was not serving my God given purpose at this job and that it was time to move on.

You see, I took this job in 2012 because money was tight for my family and it was the first job to call me since being a stay at home mom for 5 years. My last home day care child left to attend preschool and people were pressuring me to now work a “real job”.

While at home, I was happy and loving the children God blessed me to watch while their parents worked. I was able to homeschool my kids for 2 years during which time, we did not have money issues. I had peace with what I was doing and the families I served loved the atmosphere of my home day care. I was here when my dad was discharged from the hospital from kidney cancer surgery and was able to take care of him until he felt strong enough to go home to recuperate. I was available for my brother and his kids when they needed me most.

Sitting at my computer, I told God straight up that I was putting my trust totally in Him to provide for my family. I was so sure of this decision, I typed my one paragraph resignation within five minutes. It was Monday morning and Friday was going to be my last day. I had no idea what was in store for me as I took this leap of faith, but I knew it was time to trust God 100% and not myself. I said one more prayer in the elevator, hoping that I would not pass out from hyperventilating. That walk to my supervisor’s office was long but I made it. I handed her my resignation and she didn’t even acknowledge it, so I turned around and walked out of her office.

Two days later, I received a phone call from the local public schools to ask me if I could take a long term substitute position. It was for a first grade classroom teacher and would be for at least three months. I excited shouted, “YES!” and thanked her profusely. I called my husband with the good news and he was once again, speechless.

I actually called my supervisor and told her I needed the rest of the day off. I was overwhelmed that God came through for me once again. I had no idea this leap of faith was setting me up to be an entrepreneur. It was in this classroom that God showed me my purpose: to be a blessing to children. In trusting God, my nonprofit, Forever Free Books was born.

Giving away FREE books at the DC convention center
Giving away FREE books at the DC convention center

I didn’t mean to quit my job; purpose made me do it. I found that when you seek God in every area of your life, He brings your purpose out of you. We have a mission on this earth and so many of us live our lives trying to live up to other people’s expectations. This leaves us empty and void so we become shopaholics and addicted to things that aren’t good for us. I am speaking from experience and it was a miserable existence.

Now, I’m not saying, that living a life of purpose is easy, that would be a lie. What I am saying is that living a life of purpose gives you a sense of wholeness that you can’t explain. It’s something that can’t be faked. It is something others can see without you opening up your mouth. Purpose will make you do things that don’t make sense to the average person, your loved ones or even to you. This is where your faith has to kick in and take over.

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I am thankful that since taking that leap of faith, God has placed some amazing women in my life to help me walk out my purpose. That’s the beautiful thing about God, He will give you the tools you need to fulfill the purpose He has given to you to be a blessing to others. If you are feeling empty, pray and ask God, what your gift to the world is. He will reveal it to you. Your life will never be the same, you will have peace and you will be free to be who He has called you to be. I promise.

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28 thoughts on “I Didn’t Mean to Quit My Job; Purpose Made Me Do It.

  1. What a beautiful story you have shared.

    I was in the same boat as you, several years ago. When I quit the job I disliked at the time, I started to write Flirty & Feisty Romance Novels. It was a revelation and I had so much satisfaction because I had been praying for God to direct me instead of me just working to earn money. Due to economic reasons, I started working again after a year, so I stopped writing.

    Then, three years ago I had a cold which blew up into chronic fatigue and shortness of breath. So I started writing again full time on the advice of my physiotherapist. Although I’m physically exhausted all the time, I have enough energy to write and to blog about romance, my number passion. In total now, I have self-published 14 romance novels. Readers write to me stating that my books make them smile and give them hope that love still exists.

    I’m so fulfilled and happy and I have time for my two teenage children and husband. God works His wonders in us if we pray and let him take charge. I have found my God given talent and purpose in life, so I’m the thankful to God for leading me.

  2. Good for you for taking that leap of faith. I am glad it worked out well. Sometimes there is nothing else to do but walk away from somthing that’s poisoning your soul. Bigger and better things await you :-).

  3. “I am thankful that since taking that leap of faith, God has placed some amazing women in my life to help me walk out my purpose.” This is so true, queen! A strong support group is essential!

  4. Beautiful story sis! I am so glad that you trusted God enough to take your leap of faith. You are doing what your are supposed to be doing!

  5. I resonated with this story so much. I left my job in a similar way back in August and while it is nerve wrecking at times I totally trust God! I love this! thank you for sharing!

  6. It’s definitely hard to live outside of your purpose when you realize you aren’t operating within it. I have a friend who is going through that now. It’s important to move when you know it’s time instead of sitting on it. The biggest blessings come to the risk takers!!!

  7. Such an inspiring testimony. I remember my last days of work and God ordained me to raise my twins. My sister said, why would you leave your fantastic job where you work on the 10th floor with the top executives? I told her, this job is not my calling. Although I struggle accepting being a stay at home mom, it gives me peace, knowing that I am raising two beautiful and intelligent daughters. Your story reminded me to put aside my worries because God’s got this!

  8. Yes to all of this, I go to a job that I don’t like everyday. Job security makes us forget about faith sometimes. I’m glad you were able to step out on faith. It is paying off very well.

  9. I needed this so bad. I just had one of my “break downs” yesterday where work was concerned. I said at the beginning of the year that I was quitting 12.31.17 whether I was ready or not and yesterday I told God I just didn’t know if I was going to make it that long. Best believe that if I hear a word from him to head out the door before then, I will be obedient. Working a job that you hate is just terrible. Mondays can’t go by quick enough and Friday’s can’t come soon enough.

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